For the past few days, I have shut myself in the office with that timeless excuse, I simply cannot put this book down!
Seriously, for the first time in a long time, I am really committed to finishing this book. Where I can generally put my writing aside to do all the normal, everyday jobs, I suddenly can’t do it. This book has to come first…
I cannot stop until I can no longer hold a pen, and I even eat at my desk. I hope this won’t just be a flash in the pan as the word count is rising!
June 2022 Blog Battle
Ocean Deep The scar I carry is not visible so many years later it hurts like carrying a suitcase full of rocks It started with name calling Then my chair pulled away as I sat They threw things at me, homework got torn Things got worse, the older we grew too many things I try not to remember, The rocks on my back are enough Over the years, some of the rocks have fallen away Memory plays its part Yet the scar is deep, like the ocean dark I heard someone say, we adopt memories If that’s the case, I wish I could give them back To swim in a clear ocean It took too many years hiding Not until the day I met him, did I learn to smile Some of the rocks fell away from my back When children came along, the suitcase grew a great deal lighter I keep one rock on the kitchen window sill To remember every scar is not visible I pray that my children grow up scar free If not, I hope they learn to carry their wounds better than I did I look in the mirror at years past I see the rock that holds me to family Life is good… ©AnitaDawes2022
#TankaTuesday Weekly Poetry Challenge No. 277: #Tastetherainbow-Color Poetry
Writing to an audience
I read a post recently about the importance of identifying your audience or readers when drafting a book. I had heard this before and must admit I didn’t understand it then or now. I mean, basically, we write for readers, don’t we?
But apparently, this is not good enough and could be the reason our books fail to meet our expectations.
Determined to dislodge the penny, I tried to get my head around what the article was trying to tell me. Thinking back to my own writing efforts, none of them had made much of a splash, although (in my humble opinion) they were reasonably well written, so what would make a difference?
Sometimes I turn problems upside down to see them from a different angle. Very often, I can see ways of solving them or at least making them better.
My first book was a challenge for me. I didn’t know if I could write well, if at all, way back then, so I probably wrote it for myself.
To be honest, I think my second book was written for me too. And by the time I started writing the third book, I was floundering. I spent a lot of time chasing how-to articles, searching for helpful ideas and advice and getting nowhere fast.
Around this time, people were talking about muses and how helpful they can be for a writer. Not that said how to get one in the first place.
When I did get what I thought was a muse, he wasn’t what I imagined a muse should be. He was sarcastic, almost rude, making me guess what he meant, but he really made me think.
For some reason, I cannot find the link for the post I wrote on that day, and I would love you to read it…
Call me Sam…
My office is usually a quiet, peaceful place. Unless something goes radically wrong and I am having a rant.
Today was almost such a day, but I was trying hard not to lose it, determined to figure out what I was doing wrong and why my WIP was proving so difficult to get right.
I have to sit with my back to the door, something I wish I could change but the layout of the room doesn’t allow for any change. So when I sensed someone standing behind me, I assumed it to be one of the family.
‘Ma’am, that is surely a crying shame…’
The soft gentle voice of a man, inches from my ear should have alarmed me, but my curiosity had the better of me and I wondered what he was talking about. Although I wasn’t entirely sure if I had imagined it, I answered. ‘Pardon?’
‘I have to say that character is all wrong, you know…’
By now, I knew I wasn’t imagining it, but insanity seemed a better fit. I was also fascinated, so decided to play along and see what happened. ‘How do you mean?’
‘If you will permit me to sit down, I will explain…’
I nodded, aware that I was about to see who my mysterious visitor was. I watched as this white-haired, distinguished and slightly familiar gentleman walked past me to sit in the only other chair in the room. He reminded me of someone, but my brain was stumbling around like an idiot at a genius convention.
He had kindly blue eyes and an enormous, also white moustache, a bit like Albert Einstein, but I was sure it wasn’t him. He sat there, next to me, calmly watching me with an amused expression on his face. I wondered id he, like me, wondered what he was doing here. I decided to ask. ‘I feel as though I should know you, but what are you doing here in my office?’
His bushy white eyebrows were moving slightly, reminding me of caterpillars.
‘Ma’am, I have no idea how I arrived here, but judging from what I just read on your notebook, I must be here to lend a hand, so to speak.’
For the next hour, we talked about my progress as a writer, my WIP and one character in particular. I had been worried about this one, so it was refreshing to have another clearly expert opinion.
‘The problem, Ma’am is this. You have not brought him to life yet. He needs to have a life, smell the coffee, and do normal things like a regular human being. He will die soon anyway…’
‘Where did you read that? And please stop calling me Ma’am, my name is Jaye.’
‘Oh, I didn’t read it, Jaye. The poor chap never eats, so he won’t last long…’
I was embarrassed but had to laugh. My visitor was right. I had been so involved with the plot; I had forgotten to give him a life. My eyes returned to the chapter on the desk in front of me, eager to see with fresh eyes just what a pig’s ear I had made of it all. It occurred to me to thank my visitor for pointing out what had been wrong all along, but when I turned my head in his direction, he had gone and the chair was empty…
I tried to continue working but my brain was busy trying to remember where I had seen the old gentleman before…
The book he helped me with did very well. I remember feeling very differently about this one, once I knew he had been reading it. Every time I sat down to write, I imagined him looking over my shoulder, and I believe it helped. Remembering how I felt back then, the penny begins to move. I think I wrote that book for him, so maybe there is something to this, after all?
Since then, life has thrown everything at us all. Not much time for anything really. Two years on, the virus seems to have lost its teeth and life is struggling to return to normal.
The current WIP, despite a lot of work on my part, is a mess. I don’t know how many times I have almost binned it, but something compels me to keep trying.
I don’t know why my muse left, or how to get him back, but do you think he would lend a hand if I asked him nicely?
I had been feeling distraught all morning When I noticed a pin prick of light Coming through the closed blind It made me feel better to think a tiny hole Couldn’t keep the sun out Ms Penny taught us about light How slivery, how bendy it can be Creeping into the smallest space Like bad thoughts chewing the mind The ones you cannot banish With brown paper and string I tied the parcel with a bow We had yet to take the trip back home To return an unwanted gift To an unwanted part of my life Nothing can make up for the scars on my back… ©AnitaDawes2022
Last month, Colleen asked Sally Cronin to select a syllabic form for us to learn more about. Her choice was the butterfly cinquain.
Anita’s first butterfly cinquain!
I managed to switch off the computer and my worry machine over the weekend. My fingers ache from all the writing I have done, but I am so happy with the results of my first writing retreat. This may be a regular thing until I finish this work in progress.
This year started crazy and has continued to challenge us all. I lost my way with writing, to be honest, I didn’t think I could turn it around.
Somehow, I found a store of better determination, and I’m delighted! I even found time to plant seeds and cut the grass!
I managed 3000 words this weekend and came up with ideas for two more books while I was at it. Not sure why this happens, but so glad it does.
We are kicking off the week with another one of Anita’s incredible yet crazy poems. She may not be up to any long walks yet, but her brain is still working properly. Yay!
This brilliant acrostic poem is actually three poems in one. You can read each font separately, or as one poem.
The silver hours of our lives Chime like bells that become silent The light dims on plans we made A match made in heaven they said Minutes catch each breath I drove through life without a care Fate was on my side The letter I wrote declaring my love Never sent, you belong to another What chance did I have To break what is heaven made? ©AnitaDawes2022
We do love a wordle!
Luckily, I took these pictures just before the Siberian weather moved in…
We inherited this beautiful bush, so I have no idea what it is called. Usually first to bloom, it becomes a mass of white flowers. It is a weeping variety and seems determined to dominate the garden, although I don’t mind at all…
This magnolia was a gift a few years back. It still hasn’t made up its mind to thrive, so I was delighted to see these flower buds this year!
This Japanese Quince was once a bonsai, but it never thrived, so I planted it in the garden. Seems that was just what the doctor ordered!
I love Candytuft. You start with one and end up with loads. I am thinking of getting a pink one to keep him company!
This unusual Camelia has struggled since we introduced it, but the flowers are divine. Any ideas to improve its condition are very welcome. He will love you for it too…
Finally, my favourite bonsai is waking up. The leaves are still tiny, but the colour is so beautiful. I love Acers…
I wonder what I will find next Saturday?