Category: frustration
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Friday Thoughts…
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can old age be beautiful? Another week is coming to an end, and once again, I am no nearer sorting my life out. I am trying, but somehow, I get thwarted at every turn. The only thing I seem to be good at, is my daily physio, which is at least keeping me mobile. I…
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Silent Sunday…
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I had a strong desire to walk around Petersfield Pond today. It was the perfect day to see what Mother Nature was doing. But no available transport, sigh. I would just have to look through my photographs of a previous visit. I thought I could stagger out to the garden, not quite the same thing,…
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Silent Sunday…
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I wanted to be silent today too, as I didn’t want to share bad news anymore. I have been trying to relax, do what I can manage, pottering around at my own speed, which these days, is snail’s pace. I am terrified of falling again, and although I make sure to move slowly, there are…
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The Waiting Game…
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I have never liked waiting, so faced with yet another wait, I am more confused than ever. Half of me would love to have a good think, to sort out the muddle in my head. And to be honest, I have tried to think it out. But whatever is going on inside my head, it…
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Whatever Next?
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I didn’t think my life could get any worse, but I couldn’t have been more wrong. Since I collapsed, semi-paralysed last March, I have often wondered why that happened and why I had suddenly become so weak. Despite my colourful medical history, I have always managed to bounce back from some of the worst health…
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Ready, steady, go?
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I was really looking forward to the start of a new week and hopefully a better week. The sun was shining this morning, so I thought I was in with a chance. A chance to finally reach the bottom of the pile of jobs that has been slowly growing. I wasn’t sure if it was…
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Finding out the Hard way…
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I have been quiet this week, trying to come to terms with the latest developments. First, though, I had to get over the colossal disapointment that I wasn’t fit enough. I have been exercising regularly every day since last March. Have I been wasting my time, was the set routine just not good enough, or…
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Not fit enough to fix…
Yesterday was the appointment to assess the treatment for the aneurysm. I was nervous, wondering what would happen next. I understood all of the drawbacks, even the ones that made my blood run cold, and the risks involved, so I held my breath as the vascular surgeon appeared. His hands were warm, and he had…
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No Man’s Land…
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Although I have been making good headway with my latest mystery thriller, it has come to my attention that I may not be around to actually finish it. A morbid thought, and I have no real idea where it came from, as I intend to finish it, one way or another. Ever since I was…