Although I have been making good headway with my latest mystery thriller, it has come to my attention that I may not be around to actually finish it.
A morbid thought, and I have no real idea where it came from, as I intend to finish it, one way or another.
Ever since I was a child, I have always thought I would live forever. The thought of anything else has never occurred to me.
Mind you, I never thought I would get old either, so I find myself in no man’s land at the moment, a time I am not enjoying.
It is not like me to think like this, but suddenly finding myself living with an aortic aneurysm will change the way I think about a lot of things. I keep telling myself that it will all come to nothing, and I will go on as usual.
The doctor at the hospital seemed happy to wait and see, but I have just received another appointment to see him next week, so maybe he has changed his mind.
I am also waiting for the results of the recent MRI to see if anything is crawling around inside my head, so one way or another, I don’t feel very stable.
I feel as though I am in a bad dream, struggling to wake up. All I can think of is, I must have done something pretty bad to have deserved all of this…
Ps: If I have ever really needed your prayers, I need some right now… 💖💖 Jaye
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