This morning, as I was reading the news on my PC, there was an article about recognising the signs of Alzheimers or dementia, and as I am constantly being told that I am well on my way to having one or the other, I gave it a read.
I suppose it was inevitable at my age, 74, for the remarks to start because I must admit, I am nothing like I used to be. (Sssh, don’t tell anyone I said that!)
… How many times do I forget what I am doing, or what I was going to do?
… How many times do I ask the same question or misunderstand the answer?
… Trying to find the right words to express myself.
… Are my mood swings more pronounced? Although personally, despite public opinion, I think I am having more good moods lately.
… Then there are the changes in my vision. (Which are definitely caused by my cataract)
…Do I have trouble learning new skills? (This is not exactly new, I have always been a bit dense, but I get there in the end!)
But on the good side: (That I managed to find a few of these pleased me no end!)
I haven’t yet got lost in the street. (Although I did recently forget my dentist appointment)
I haven’t yet staggered down the road, waving my knickers in the air. (And I hope I never do, but it could happen apparently!)
I have not lost interest in any of my projects or hobbies. Just the time I need to do them!
I can still do sums in my head and follow a plot. (More or less!)
I have begun to worry less about our progress, but wonder if this is down to losing the plot!
One of my main accusers is also displaying some of these telltale signs, so it is probably only a matter of time for either one of us falls foul to the disease of the aged… This isn’t a competition I intend to win, however…
All joking aside, I am becoming a little concerned about the star of my brain. At first, it was amusing and on a good day, it can be hilarious, watching myself do the most stupid of things. Like going out for a walk without any shoes on, or forgetting to switch on the washing machine/computer/iron/oven and wonder why nothing happens. One the best ones was wondering why the kettle didn’t quite fit in the fridge. Even I had to laugh at that one.
All of this is beginning to affect my writing too, despite all the notes I make, and the frantic checking what I actually wrote yesterday.
I still get a satisfying buzz when I reach my daily total, but the extent of my elation is in itself alarming. I am having to work in short bursts, and this is playing havoc with my productivity!
I want to believe this has everything to do with the cataract in my left eye. It has been slowly growing for some years now and is finally large enough to be removed. As per NHS guidelines, of course. My vision is doing such weird things, but could it be affecting my brain too?
If anyone has any experience of this, I would be delighted to hear it.