( This is the closest to heaven I am likely to get for a while… )
My bones lie beneath the light that touches the ocean
My soul trapped by the chains that bind my mortal form
Dead, yet not gone to rest, bound by chains to my weakened mind
I count stars at night, watch great ocean liners cross above me
I hear laughter from those on their journey
The occasion wreath thrown overboard, ashes float on the surface
Sun kissed flashing patterns, painted by fingers of sunlight
Why did I not notice these small wonders before?
Do flowers thrown overboard lead the dead souls onward
If so, somehow, I pray for someone to remember me
Someday throw a petal or two from passing ship to help me.
One single flower might show the way…
This week the weather has been the least of our worries.
We were all too busy worrying about the imminent arrival of our new baby.
Tension had built to breaking point and all of our stress levels were on overload.
We knew the date he/she was expected to arrive, but it was beginning to look as though baby had other ideas. It became impossible to concentrate on anything else.
Somehow, the days passed but no work was being done. Nothing creative anyway. We busied ourselves with chores we could do with our eyes shut, trying so hard not to give voice to our concerns.
The day baby chose to arrive seemed surreal. Everyone seemed to be holding their breath, but finally, she was here. Perfectly beautiful and content to sleep through the constant stream of family members, all eager to see her.
The release of tension left me drained, and instead of picking up my WIP to resume editing, I wanted to run and shout, go somewhere or do something to replenish my mojo. It was a sunny day, the wind was chilly, but I didn’t care. I needed to be near the sea, as nothing else has ever soothed my soul like the ocean.
For once I didn’t get an argument and we piled into the car and took off. Half an hour later, I stood on the shingle. The tide was in and a strong wind was creating dramatic waves that crashed on to the beach. My eyes filled with tears at the sight and sound of it, and I relaxed for the first time in days.
I had my camera with me and tried to capture the majesty of the moment. The wind had turned icy, and by the time I had finished, my hands were almost blue with the cold. But my mojo felt as if it had been born again.
Altogether, a very special day if you ask me…