The Sleeping Mind…




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I woke this morning, wondering about the subconscious.

Does it play silly buggers in the space between our dreams while the conscious mind sleeps? Reminding me of while the cats away.

Why does the conscious mind wake us in the middle of a dream for a bathroom break?

What was it about that dream that you were not meant to play out?

Was it something the conscious mind could make a reality?

Are we saved by the two halves of us, even in sleep?

I cannot help but wonder.

Every thought causes a physical reaction.

Do our thoughts play out in that space between dreaming, where we have no control? Could this explain some of the strange things that happen during the day?

I have a feeling our subconscious mind could be a trickster, seeing as how it knows nothing about right or wrong.

It works only with our thoughts as if they are made of plastic, moulding them as best it can to the thought received.

A string of lights has a space between. Our dreams are the same, they come one after another, many forgotten by morning.

Do they fall into the space between?

Do they develop into something stranger?

Is the space dangerous? Can another enter, stay with us and live alongside us?

Is it the place we go when life is done and the lights go out?

Could it be a dream tower where the text of our lives is written?

If we could dream it, could we change the words.

Rewrite our own text with words and thoughts to bring the desired effect?

What if the space between is a playground where the future is written?


A small word with a big meaning…







I first noticed Albert sitting on a park bench outside my office building. I took him to be in his late forties. There are a few reasons he stuck out for me. His dark navy suit had seen better days and the shirt might have been white a long time ago. His dark hair was greasy, flat. I couldn’t make out the colour of his eyes. He wore no shoes. It was mid-April, and warm. His feet were filthy with dried blood. I was struck most by the glow around him as if he had been polished by the sun.

The day was overcast, waiting for rain. I decided to take him a coffee and a sandwich. I wanted to know his story. At first, I sat without speaking, placing the coffee and sandwich in the space between us. I could almost feel the glow coming from him. He turned his face towards me and asked me for the time and the day. I told him, pushing the coffee nearer to him.

‘Please,’ I said, ‘these are for you.’

He thanked me, and I was taken aback by the sound of his voice. It was soft and gentle with a sense of innocence as if he had never seen or heard anything bad. The only thing I managed to find out that day was his name and that he was on his way to Canterbury Cathedral.

‘A penance…’ he said.

We are in the middle of Kent and miles from Canterbury. I looked at his feet, wondering if he would make it. He said no more and I went back to my office. I couldn’t work. I sat watching this man, a stranger that somehow stuck to me like a second skin.

That night at home, I told my very new wife about Albert. All night I couldn’t shake Albert from my mind. The next morning, over breakfast, I told my wife I needed to take a few days off, as I wanted to walk with Albert.

I should have mentioned earlier that my office and my job is publishing, looking for the next best seller. Albert has a story to tell, I wanted to be the one to tell it.

Alice, my wife agreed that it sounded too good not to try. I packed a rucksack with spare socks and underwear, a few tops, and a pair of soft jeans. Spare trainers, well-worn like the ones on my feet. Hoping to catch up with Albert. How hard could it be?

I knew where he was going.

I set off, hoping he hadn’t taken the long way to Canterbury. I popped into the office, letting them know what I was up to and leaving instructions for the time I would be gone. I had leave owing and took it, no argument.

Making my way to where I last saw Albert, I knew he wouldn’t be sitting there waiting for me. I asked around if anyone had seen a man with bare feet. Charlie on the paperstand said he had taken off towards Woolage Green. From Shepherdswell he couldn’t have gone far.

I found Albert sitting by a tree in Woolage Green. I don’t know what he was made off, but my legs were done in already. The light was leaving, and I asked if I could walk with him. He said he couldn’t stop me from walking in the same direction as the road was free to everyone.

I asked if he would be resting for a while, as I wanted to get some food from the shops nearby. I knew he must be hungry, thirsty at the very least. Looking over my shoulder, I must have taken twenty minutes before getting back to Albert where two young ladies had beaten me to it, giving him a sandwich and a bottle of water.

Sitting beside him, I did my best to get him talking. My first question was why he was punishing himself by walking with no shoes. His answer was simple.

‘So I can feel the ground.’

‘Can I ask, why Canterbury?’

‘It is the best place to make my confession.’

He didn’t seem to mind talking to me, but somehow I didn’t feel like pushing my luck. We slept beneath the tree. The ground was hard, my thoughts tearing around my head like a speeding bullet. Which made me wonder, had Albert killed someone?

Somehow, I didn’t think so. The night felt longer than any night I had tried to sleep through. Albert seemed quite comfortable propped up against the tree. When the sun came up, I couldn’t move. My back felt as though I had lain on rocks. Not smooth boulders either, jagged rocks. Albert was nowhere in sight. Again, I wasn’t worried. There was a Poppins in town and I decided on breakfast. Thinking about how fast Albert walked, I could cheat and jump on a bus to the next town, which was Barham.

A stranger told me he had been seen heading for the North Downs. I finally caught up with him at Aylesham, where again he had been fed. As if he were a monk with an invisible begging bowl. He seemed to be walking in whatever direction took his fancy. Asking how he felt, led me to my next question.

‘What are you punishing yourself for?’

He looked at me for a while and I wondered if I had gone too far. It was personal after all.

‘I will tell you my story, maybe then we can travel in peace. I am a simple man, an accountant. I live alone. I visit my parents to see they are all right. On one of those visits, my mother had left out an old photo album, which I flicked through. A letter slipped out, which I read. The words told me that I was one-half of a twin. Unfortunately, I had absorbed the other being while I was waiting to be born. At first, it didn’t bother me too much. A shock, yes. A year or so later, I found I couldn’t stop thinking about the life I had taken. My life fell apart, so here I am…’

Words failed me. This man was torturing himself for something he had no control over. I tried to explain this, but it did no good.

He said, ‘I took a life…’

The nearer we came to Canterbury, I watched the glow around Albert fading. A shadow now hung over him. I figured one more day and we would hit Canterbury high street. It was years since I had been there.

That last night, we slept under the shadow of the Cathedral. My bag stuffed with dirty clothes became my pillow. I wondered if a priest would be available to take Albert’s confession at such short notice. Undeterred, Albert walked through the open doors. Visitors stopped to watch as he passed. I didn’t know where the confessional boxes were located. By now, I looked every bit as dishevelled as Albert. I noticed a young priest walking towards us, he had kind blue eyes and asked if he could help.

Albert spoke, in that beautiful voice, which I swear, hypnotised the young priest. ‘I need to make confession and my companion, who has walked with me, could do with a blessing.’

The priest, who by now had said his name was Father Thomas, escorted us to a small room, where he asked Albert to sit down. ‘I am sure Father Michael will take your confession after I have seen to your feet.’

Albert made no objection. His feet were placed in a warm bowl of water. A hot cup of tea was placed on both of our hands. By now, I noticed the shadow beside Albert had grown, almost as though someone stood beside him.

Albert refused the soft shoes offered to him.

‘I will take you to Father Michael now,’ the young priest said, telling me to wait there for Albert. I said I would rather wait outside with the rest of the visitors.

An hour passed before I saw Albert again with Father Thomas. The shadow no longer walked beside him, the glow had returned.

Father Thomas told me that Albert would be staying with them for a while.

‘You may talk in the small room, for Albert has something to tell you.’

No thought of what that might be crossed my mind. The door shut behind us and the room felt smaller than before. I looked at Alberts’ feet, clean for the first time since I met him.

‘I want to thank you for walking with me. You can tell my story as your own, about a man you met along the way.’

Albert left me alone in the room. I sat awhile before managing to move.

I wrote the story for Albert and the many people who might feel guilt that doesn’t truly belong to them. The title was simple, Albert. My dedication inside read, Thank you for the Journey


Jaye’s Journal ~ Week 9


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This week the weather has been the least of our worries.

We were all too busy worrying about the imminent arrival of our new baby.

Tension had built to breaking point and all of our stress levels were on overload.

We knew the date he/she was expected to arrive, but it was beginning to look as though baby had other ideas. It became impossible to concentrate on anything else.

Somehow, the days passed but no work was being done. Nothing creative anyway. We busied ourselves with chores we could do with our eyes shut, trying so hard not to give voice to our concerns.

The day baby chose to arrive seemed surreal. Everyone seemed to be holding their breath, but finally, she was here. Perfectly beautiful and content to sleep through the constant stream of family members, all eager to see her.

The release of tension left me drained, and instead of picking up my WIP to resume editing, I wanted to run and shout, go somewhere or do something to replenish my mojo. It was a sunny day, the wind was chilly, but I didn’t care. I needed to be near the sea, as nothing else has ever soothed my soul like the ocean.

For once I didn’t get an argument and we piled into the car and took off. Half an hour later, I stood on the shingle. The tide was in and a strong wind was creating dramatic waves that crashed on to the beach. My eyes filled with tears at the sight and sound of it, and I relaxed for the first time in days.

I had my camera with me and tried to capture the majesty of the moment. The wind had turned icy, and by the time I had finished, my hands were almost blue with the cold. But my mojo felt as if it had been born again.

Altogether, a very special day if you ask me…



Spiders Web… #Poetry



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Spiders Web

What is this thing we call dreaming?

Is it an alternate reality we live during the dark hours?

Are others living out their moment before being born

Using our blank minds to imprint their time upon?

Should we take note of those dream moments?

Alas, we do not. We let them fall by the wayside

A possible message lost.

Not all dreams relate to the day before.

As has been said, there are strange moments

mixed in that you seem to recognise, but cannot place.

Faces, voices that you feel you have met before

Familiar attributes you feel comfortable with

Is each life no more than a giant spiders web?

Each silken thread pulled by a puppet master

That loves the dark dreams best

the ones we call nightmares…



#Wordle 392





Not My World

I paid my tithe, ten per cent of all I earned

Still, I was dragged through the wormhole

The ride smooth, my trial begins.

Bright lights beckoned, whispered voices warning

turn back if you can, for you the light holds danger.

A dark vial fell across my eyes

I could hear a rushing tide

Maybe I could swim my way out?

Chide by a strong male voice, “Just hold on,

a way out will show itself…”

My father’s voice helped me traverse the wormhole

My body fell on hard ground

I felt like Alice in Wonderland

As my eyes took in the scene around me

The sky changed colour each time I looked at it

Trees grew then disappeared

Birds with no wings, fish walking.

The wormhole vanished

I am no longer in my own world

My scream for help filled the air…


Dark Heart… #Poetry



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Dark Heart

I did not fall from heaven

as a shining star.

Evil was my intent

to enter men’s hearts

yet many are too strong

my quote unfulfilled.

I am left to wonder,

to search for the darker

regions of men’s hearts

for I know there are many.

Dark thoughts floating  free

they belong to someone.

I will find them

to dwell on the darker meaning…


Storm Winds…



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Storm Winds

I am sending out a SOS across the universe

My life is spinning out of time.

The taste of her tears linger

pulling me further into space.

She struck like lightning

then disappeared with the storm.

I let an angel slip through my fingers

Life is hollow without her here.

Sending out a SOS for storm winds

to bring her back to me…