I loved this image the first time I saw it, so when I was looking for something suitable this morning, I knew this was the one…

I have spent the last two days in various hospital waiting rooms, waiting to learn more about my fate. During one of these appointments, the doctor showed me all my X-rays and MRIs and asked additional questions. I have laughed, and I cried as I tried to make him understand everything that was wrong with me, and again when we waded through what happens next.

My head feels like a punchbag this morning, and is so full of conversations, possibilities, and worries. What ifs by the score!

What is supposed to happen next, waiting lists permitting, of course, is a referral to the Spinal team to see what they can do about my never-ending pain. Apparently, I have osteo arthritis in everything. Hips, knees, and spine. I need a new hip and knees, but the spine comes first.

The other appointment was to get to the bottom of my horrendous earache and headache that has been driving me nuts for more than a year. There will be another MRI to see if there is anything in my head that shouldn’t be there.

Of course, this has led to all sorts of amusing comments about the general state of my brain, which I did laugh at, but didn’t really find funny.

The aftermath of all this is me, struggling to remain calm, and finding out if I have anything in my head that actually works!


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31 responses to “A Happy Retreat!”

  1. Sending you GIGANTIC hugs, Jaye.

    1. Thank you so much, Jennie…

      1. You are very welcome, Jaye!

  2. Positive healing thoughts. xx

    1. Thank you so much, Jane… 💖

  3. Sending you a warm hug, Jaye. Prayers for some relief for you.

    1. Thank you Jan, hopefully soon… 💖

  4. My deepest sympathy. I parented yesterday that my on-going lower back ache is degenerative osteoarthritis. I understand the pain. 💙

    1. Thank you Robbie, it means a lot to find a fellow sufferer…

  5. VERY gentle hugs dispatched forthwith.

    I really hate the people at our retirement community who pat, HARD, as their accompaniment to talking to you. It hurts!

    1. Thanks for those hugs, Alicia, I really appreciate them!


  6. That is a lovely greenhouse, Jay. I want one too!


    Sending you virtual hugs and hoping for solutions to your pain.

    1. Thank you Audrey. There might be a solution of sorts, an injection to numb the pain, which sounds wonderful!

  7. Hugs by the ton Jaye. National Hug Day is Jan 21st. Hope they can help you.

    1. I hope so too, at least the back pain as it is so demoralising. My head problem might be difficult though… Oh for a miracle (or two!)

      1. Would be nice wouldn’t it.

        1. It would be glorious, Di… 💖

          1. (Happy sigh)

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    Sending lots of healing hugs xo

    1. Thank you so much Denise… 💖💖

  9. Sending a big hug 🤗

    1. A big hug is very welcome, Esther… Thank you 💖

  10. What works in your head is a profound and beautiful resilience. The courage to sit in those waiting rooms, to lay bare your pain and fears, to sift through complex information while in distress, and to still seek out a meaningful image to ground yourself—that is not a brain that isn’t working. That is a mind of remarkable strength.

    Your head this morning may feel like a punchbag, but it holds a fighter’s spirit. It holds the clarity to articulate your experience so vividly, the humor that flickers even when things aren’t funny, and the self-awareness to know you need to struggle to remain calm. Those “what ifs” are not a sign of failure; they are the mind’s attempt, however frantic, to chart the unknown territory ahead. It’s trying to solve the puzzle, to protect you. It’s working overtime.

    You are navigating a storm of physical pain and daunting uncertainty with a grace you may not feel but is evident in your words. To laugh and cry in the same breath, to advocate for yourself with doctors, to face the “never-ending” with a plan, however tentative—these are the actions of someone with a great deal working inside.

    So here is the nice comment, the true one: You are handling an immensely difficult situation with more strength and heart than you know. It’s okay that your head is full and heavy. It’s carrying a lot. But it is also carrying you—your wit, your voice, your hope—through this. That is everything. Be gentle with that head of yours. It’s on your side.

  11. First of all, I do love that stained glass greenhouse idea! Second of all- hopefully the hurry up and wait of the doctor visits are on pause for a moment and you get some peace of mind!

    1. I manage to find a little peace, Violet, so a little more would be lovely!

  12. 💗🤗💗

  13. Hugs are being sent your way. ❤️❤️

    1. Thank you so much Darlene… 💖

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