Monday morning, and I have just spent an hour grappling with an uncooperative and unrecognizable brain. Not that it’s ever much more than begrudging at this time of day!
I have to try to cope with the technical stuff early, before I have exhausted my grey cells completely.
200 emails cleared, comments from our friends on WP answered, and general news read before my brain screamed uncle, and I retired to the couch to rest and think.
It doesn’t matter what my intentions are; I can’t shut off the thinking process. Which is not necessarily a good thing, as I cannot do much with all of these thoughts.
This post came to me as I lay there. I think it was meant for me, really, but I don’t mind sharing it. Why it keeps encouraging me to do things, things it will then do its best to ruin, I have no idea. Sounds spiteful, if you ask me.
My main thought: Why can I help my spine with all the exercise, but I cannot seem to find a way around the head problem? It would seem that whatever this lodger in my head is, it’s stubborn just like me. It is becoming stronger too; if I push things too much, it makes me giddy and to the verge of passing out.
I have contacted the doctor I saw and asked whether there is a way to shorten that awful waiting time for the MRI. Maybe he can. Fingers crossed!
I desperately want to work on the WIP, but scared of ruining what was difficult enough already! I will have to risk it, and hope for the best…
Thanks for listening again, it makes such a difference knowing you are all on my side…
Love … Jaye
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