Have I done it again!
What I needed was a little more enthusiasm, something that had seemingly been mislaid, disrupting my joy in all things writing-related.
All of my past irons were still in the fire, but the flames had long since extinguished.
So, when I felt that joy returning last week, I was overjoyed.
I felt stronger, more capable than I had in ages. More than happy to stoke the fire and ramp up the workload. Just as well, really, for there was a lot to catch up on. My days were full of bliss and determination as I set to work.
Most of my endeavours brought even more joy to my heart, but gradually, the not-so-easy tasks began to make their presence known.
I wasn’t daunted, as I was the new, stronger me now, wasn’t I?
My enthusiasm doubled as I refused to admit defeat. Not so soon, anyway!
It wasn’t long before I realised I was almost back to square one. Too many irons in the fire again, and I wasn’t getting anywhere. The only thing missing was the despondency and depression.
I could avoid the tasks that were defeating me and walk a less complicated path, but I knew I couldn’t live with that.
The first thing that occurred to me was that I had to concentrate on one thing at a time, as it was becoming apparent that my multitasking days had gone the way of all things. Trying to ignore this fact was probably the reason I had painted myself into a corner before.
I will also ask for help more often, as trying to learn anything on YouTube can be disappointing, and I am fast running out of ideas. (And a little patience)
So, there will be changes as I continue to try and make everything work…