The perfect mind is calm. I need to retrain my mind to ignore the background noise of my thoughts.
But how to quiet my mind?
How do those Buddhist monks do it? They seem to observe their thoughts without judgement and let them pass, using the rhythm of their breathing to control their thoughts.
I must concentrate on the present, not dwell in the past or worry about the future, but try as I might, I can’t seem to find the way there.
I have begun to realise that the me that once was isn’t here anymore, probably because I don’t like the me I am now. The helpless me, the one who must concentrate on where I put my feet, or how often I should rest. The me that cannot remember things that were so easy before.
My mind isn’t in the here and now, it wanders, lost in the past and the future, wondering how I will be…
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