Doing things Backwards…

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Something very strange is going on around here, but I am not questioning it yet, just going with the flow…

I was a pretty miserable person at the beginning of the week. I hated everything, including me. Everything felt like a waste of time, for I felt so ill, I didn’t see the point in doing anything. I ended up going through the motions, mainly for appearance sake, but inside, it all felt wrong.

I had an optician appointment on Tuesday, to see if they could shed a light on my failing eyesight, and possibly connected earache. After some intensive tests, the news made my mood even worse. My eyes were not working together, and the optician, bless her, couldn’t make them behave, so I have been referred to the hospital for further tests. At this point, my imagination went wild.

I covered everything from cancer in the offending eye, to a brain tumour, and saw myself struggling with an eye patch and not being able to see or write properly ever again. I was given artificial tears to use, as my eyes were also very dry.

On Wednesday, number one son took me shopping, as my online efforts had missed a few things. It was utter pandemonium in Tesco Extra, a huge supermarket I rarely go to, but we sailed around and ended up in the cafe having hot chocolate. I will do almost anything for a hot choccy, so I was well happy.

Yesterday, I noticed that I could see a little better, and more to the point, I felt a little better. The pain in my back was less and my head was clearer. I didn’t need to count the minutes until the next painkillers either. I didn’t question this, or pray that it lasted. I didn’t know it then, but I was slowly sliding into the twilight zone.

Which is where I find myself this morning. I will switch off my PC in a minute, and spend the afternoon at my writing desk. My head is brimming over with inspiration and I don’t want lose a minute of it.

All being well, I should be around later, as I have had some wonderful thoughts about Detective David Snow and his latest story, Swan Song…


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  1. D. Wallace Peach Avatar

    Our bodies do weird things, Jaye, and so do our minds. I’m glad you took action, but also glad that the solution came of its own accord – going with the flow. So glad you’re filled with inspiration! Happy Writing.

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    1. Jaye Marie and Anita Dawes Avatar

      I used to know my body so well, with all of it’s quirks, but I don’t recognise the one I’m in now!

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      1. D. Wallace Peach Avatar

        I’m the same way. I complain to my doctor about it, and she says I sound like her parents. Lol

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        1. Jaye Marie and Anita Dawes Avatar

          getting used to growing old is no fun at all, Diana… You think you are okay with it, and then something else stops working!

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          1. D. Wallace Peach Avatar

            Yes, that’s how it goes, isn’t it? A lesson in humility for sure. We have to make the most of the good days.

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            1. Jaye Marie and Anita Dawes Avatar

              There hasn’t been many good days in 2024, Diana. Hopefully there will be a few more of them in 2025!

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  2. Stevie Turner Avatar

    Sorry to hear you’re having so much trouble with your eyes. If you can’t see too well, maybe buy a voice recorder and record your thoughts instead for hopefully typing up at a later date (or asking Anita to do it)?

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    1. Jaye Marie and Anita Dawes Avatar

      That made me laugh! Anita wouldn’t touch a computer if her life depended on it, but I already dictate some posts, so this could be the way forward. Thank you Stevie…

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  3. Annette Rochelle Aben Avatar

    May inspiration FILL your soul!

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  4. V.M.Sang Avatar

    I’m so glad to hear you are back to writing.

    If your eyes aren’t working together, are you getting double vision? Mine aren’t coordinating properly and that’s what I get.

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    1. Jaye Marie and Anita Dawes Avatar

      Oh yes, and it’s driving me crazy. This is what they are having trouble controlling…

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      1. V.M.Sang Avatar

        They told me to buy some plain glasses, and, after lots of tests to get it right, they stuck something that has prisms on it onto one lens. You can hardly tell there’s anything different between the two lenses by looking, but it has definitely helped.

        But maybe yours is different, or worse than mine. But I hope they can sort it. It is annoying.

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        1. Jaye Marie and Anita Dawes Avatar

          They have mentioned prisms, and will be receiving an appointment for these… sounds promising though!

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          1. V.M.Sang Avatar

            I hope they can do it. The prisms worked for me. Good luck, and a Merry Christmas.

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