Jaye’s Journal ~ week 15

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Are there days when you cannot cope with your chosen occupation?

I have had many jobs in my time and hated quite a few of them, but never thought I would ever feel less than love for writing.

Lately, I have been having days when things seem to be slipping, a digital carrying-on that can plague anyone who switches on a computer.

This week, I had more than one day like this. A fatal mixture of an old and feeble person trying to use an equally old and feeble computer.

The overall tone of the week surprised me, seeing as I had just typed those magic words at the end of my WIP, I should be happy or at least relieved, or optimistic reaching the end of what has turned out to be a fascinating if complicated story.

Secretly though, I knew why I wasn’t jumping around like an idiot. I am an idiot (most of the time), but that wasn’t the reason.

I was secretly terrified that, having written this unusual and complicated story, that I wasn’t competent enough to present it in the best possible light.

This is a story that I didn’t know much about initially, or how to write it. It has been one hell of a learning curve. The research alone took almost as long as writing it.

 

Something strange happened today.

I have recently changed the header image on our website, and that is what I expected to see when I logged on, but the picture I saw was not mine and one I had never seen before.

How was this even possible?

Also, the new header image had vanished. It wasn’t saved with all the other old headers, so whoever had changed it had run off with my new one.

Surely, this couldn’t happen, could it?

Perhaps it was a message from my muse, for I wasn’t happy with my choice, so maybe she wasn’t either…

watermark xjj

 

15 thoughts on “Jaye’s Journal ~ week 15

  1. Why do doubts hang around like newly fledged teenagers? when something important has been completed. (I can imagine them shrugging and thinking ‘So what?’) Celibrate and shout out Hallelujah! xx

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  2. Congratulations on getting to ‘The End’!!! 😀

    I’m liking editing more and more, the better my writing (of the first draft) gets. To take an OK sentence and refine it so that it says exactly what it want to, helps me to realise and remember that I’m rather good at this writing gig! 🙂

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  3. A book is completed.
    Time for me to rejoice.
    Once a writer completes from the power within and not the pocket or out of twisted hate I rejoice.
    Well done Jaye. Another contribution to the wonderful Creativity of Us All.
    Just keep on keeping on
    Best wishes
    Roger

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